I didn’t want to give you a reason that isn’t the truth just to spare your feelings because I just don’t like lying to people, and you’ll somehow probably find out the truth eventually. But I also didn’t want to hurt your feelings by telling the truth from the start. Either way you’ll get hurt somehow, and I’ll feel like a complete ass hat. Why couldn’t you have just accepted the ‘I’m not interested in you in that way’? Because when you ask for a more defined reason, it just gets even trickier and won’t turn out any better. When it comes to rejection (Gawd, I hate that word) you can’t really make it turn out to be something where the person doesn’t get at least somewhat hurt (that’s what I think anyways). That’s just a part of the whole process, and I know it sucks, but what can you do? I tried telling you the WHOLE truth, like you wanted may I add, and it somehow blew up in my face. I really hope I didn’t come across as a shallow b-i-t-c-h. I know I may have not handled this situation very well, but I’m not used to this, and I really did try to say it as nice as possible. That is until you continued to push me. Not cool, man.
(I don’t know if all this made any sense. Oh well.)
“I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity, and her flaming self respect. And it’s these things I’d believe in, even if the whole world indulged in wild suspicions that she wasn’t all she should be. I love her and it is the beginning of everything.”—Scott Fitzgerald (via pattymumu)
“I never even managed to become anything; neither wicked nor good; neither a scoundrel nor an honest man; neither a hero nor an insect. And now I am living out my life in my corner, taunting myself with the bitter and utterly futile consolation that it is even impossible for an intelligent man seriously to become anything, and only fools become something.”